Fortunately for me, I made some rather good friends here in Canada who suggested I microdose on psychedelics to see whether I could turn my situation for the better.
I read articles on Silicon Valley moguls taking LSD in very small quantities to help them solve problems. The best literature I came across was the experiments that were being done at Johns Hopkins University pioneered by Dr Rolland Griffith’s labs on psilocybin assisted psychotherapy.
I said to myself why not give it a try?
It was summer, my semester ended rough, I got my hands on some magic mushrooms, a coffee grinder and empty capsules in which I weighed 0.3g of powdered mushrooms and dosed every third day according to the Fadiman regime.
Within the next two weeks, I noticed that my auditory hallucinations went away. I started to notice when I was outside, the day was a bit brighter than it was previously.
At first, I thought that it was part of the hallucinatory effects of psychedelic mushrooms, but my mood started improving and it wasn’t dark and gloomy like the weather outside anymore. For the first time I started saying to myself that life was good.
I slowly started to have a decent amount of sleep and by that I meant that I started having vivid dreams. I didn’t know that I wasn’t dreaming at all. I figured that REM sleep is an essential component for good mental health and this was completely missing before I started on microdosing.
By the end of six weeks, I began to get a grasp of my life and my anxiety started to fade away. I had this awareness that I never had before in my life.
I was smoking less and less cigarettes as the aftertaste that smoking cigarettes left was unbearable now. I was also smoking less cannabis than I used to, but that habit didn’t go away until a year later. I quit smoking cigarettes followed by a single large dose of mushrooms by the end of the third month of starting microdosing. However, kicking the cigarette habit cannot be attributed to microdosing alone. My willpower to stop was enhanced because of microdosing mushrooms.